Departure

Where to begin...?

Perhaps the TL;DR version: wrought with self-loathing, I have decided to leave the (ingame-)guild.
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Let me start by saying this: I am not leaving, because of any beef with any of you. The short time I have spent with you lot has been nothing short of a blast and I noticed a lot of common ground with quite a few of you.

I am also not thinking lightly of this deicision. Leaving a guild should not be an 'easy thing to do', and please trust me when I say that I won't be hopping around the server with a new name above my head next week.
No, I think it might be best if I steer clear of guilds entirely, and when I do have some time to spare, I will see if I can hitch some time with some friends of mine.

This is something I decided after a long, hard consideration-session.
The regulars have, no doubt, noticed my absence over the past few days (regardless of whether it was announced or not) and the near future shows more spare time being consumed by things I don't want to do, but which I am forced to do regardless.

Being a member comes with some basic responsibilities, two really, when you think about it:
- Pay your contribution
- Be online; be social (with the guild)

It seems that I manage to fail even these most basic of tasks.

You see, I had intended to be online regularly, honestly. Thing is, I already know that there will be complications in the forseeable future, and you - my wonderful CTS (Cupcake Thunder Squad) - have no (read: zero) use of a member who is not doing member-like things (IE: play the game).

This is not a decision I made with my own self-interest up front. (IE: I'm not online, so my weekly guild-contribution would bankrupt me far faster than I am able to make money and - more importantly - soulstones)
I made this decision, because I do not wish to be a liability to any of you. My spot could very easily be taken by someone much more active than I.
Really, I have considered my options, and I honesly tried to make it work, because I truly do wish to stay here. I have fun here! Runs are amusing, I learn a lot from you guys.... But in the end, I realized that I simply cannot be the active guild member you wish to have...or the guild member I wish to be.

As such, it is with a heavy heart that I take what is perhaps the fastest exist ever (of this guild, at least)

I can understand if some of you are less than content with this. You might feel like I have "used" you; like I have "wasted your time"... I cannot blame you for this. While those have - of course - not been my intentions, the fact that this is happening...I can understand if some of you hold these feelings of discontent toward me, and rightfully so.

I initially had planned to simply wait it out some more, and hopefully hop online, and try to struggle it out...but I would only be delaying the innevitable, and it would make this all the more...awkward, perhaps?
I had planned to tell all of you this in-game, but alas, today I also cannot make it (I was taken out for diner, because of my birthday)
But I felt that I had to make a move sooner, rather than later...and so I resorted to this rather lengthy post.

If any of you wish to ask me stuff, or otherwise wish to interrogate me: ask away. I'll try to answer any questions as best I can.

If any of you wish to keep in contact with me, for whatever magical reason: I would be honoured to, but...we have just established that I will be much busier than previously anticipated, so...yeah.

If any of you still wish to see what I look like in RL...I guess I can post something in the picture thread or something...

So there you have it. Lithia will have to become an Ex-cake .___.


- Lith. ...Short-lived.

 

Spoiler

First off: thank you for the kind words. I appreciate that.
It is not that I consider I have done everything wrong, but leaving (or having TO leave) the guild so soon after I've joined looks stupid, and in some eyes half-assed.
With this I wanted to make sure that I do take this seriously.
As far as tiredness goes...well, you're not wrong there. I am, indeed, oh so tired. But it is precisiely gaming that takes away from daily worry, and it simply bugs me that this has gone the absolute opposite of how I wanted things to go.
As far as 'rejoining'...Do not hold your breath. Even if you people would allow it, playing "flicker-light" is something I personally am not comfortable with, as dropping in- and out makes it look as if I'm using the guild in a way that's convenient only to me. And that should not be the case.
That said: if I am allowed to roam around these forums...I could at least manage that ^___^;

Spoiler

Thank you very much for understanding, it does put me at ease.
When I say "someone else could easily take my spot" I mean that if I sit still and am not online, there is one spot - taken by me - that does little.
I was unsure as to how close to being "full" the guild is, but an active member is better than an inactive member, no?

Mind you the true reason was never about the weekly fee. If I were able to play on a regular basis, there would be no problem. Even I - with my severe hatred for PvP-based activities - could run Exiles daily, and still make a meagre 4 sould-stones profit at the end of the week.
The weekly payment, in my eyes, was very fair. Thing is that I have little time to play at all, which brings me back to the reason I wrote this post in the first place ^___^;

Regardless, thank you once again, for not turning on the flames of rage, as I've seen that happen too much in my online-gaming lifetime.
I wish things could be different, but like you guys are seeing: this is probably for the best.

As I stated, I would be happy and honoured to be a presence on the boards here, but if this is a members-only area (very possible; very understandable) then this is where I wave my last goodbye (depending on how many more people come with questions, that is)

- Lith. ...Clarity.